The Path Ahead
Molly, my fearless hiking partner, is waiting to go on the trails at Dolliver Memorial State Park. You can't see it in the photo, but she is literally quivering with excitement. I'm sure she's hoping there will be a place to swim, interesting smells, and that I will let her lead.
She doesn't know what we'll find on the trail. There might be horse flies that bite. There might be steep trails and she'll have to "go behind." There might be other hikers with dogs that snarl and want to bite her.
Whatever is ahead, Molly isn't worried. She trusts me, she knows that I will lead her, and that I will be with her. She is ready for an adventure.
I'm waiting to start down a new path as well.
This is our oldest son, Ben. He's about 40 years older now, but this is the face I see when I'm with him.
He is our miracle--the baby we were told we would never have, the baby I pleaded and prayed for, the baby conceived during a time of fasting and prayer. He grew into a sweet, smart, funny, thoughtful little boy who brought immeasurable delight and joy into our lives. And all too soon he was a man with a family of his own.
We are praying for a miracle again.
Ben has been fighting chronic myeloid leukemia for over two years. He has tried 5 different medications. None have defeated the leukemia, and his body does not tolerate them well. So, in a few months, he will have a bone marrow transplant, a risky procedure with numerous chances of complications.
There are many who love Ben besides his dad and I. He has a wonderful wife, 5 beautiful children, a brother, a sister, and many friends and coworkers. None of us know what the path ahead holds. We're hoping there is healing, restoration, and a full and vigorous life for Ben.
I am not quivering with excitement for this path. But I am trying not to worry. I trust the One who leads us. And I know that He will not send us down the path on our own, He will walk every step with us. And most of all, I know He loves all of us with a love that far surpasses even our own love for Ben.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
9/21/2020 07:47:28 pm
My heart prays for all of you. Such a difficult journey. May our Lord Jesus heal and bring peace and provision. #PraisetheLordandPasstheChemo
9/23/2020 08:53:31 am
Thanks, Elaine. And your book has been a blessing!
9/21/2020 09:04:14 pm
This is so sad, but I am thankful God is bigger than illness. You and your son and your family are in my prayers. Hugs.
9/21/2020 09:10:03 pm
It is with tears in my eyes that I write... Prayers for Ben as he plans for and undergoes this treatment. And prayers for all of his loved ones as they strive to give comfort and understanding. And prayers for healing. Blessings asked for all of you.
9/21/2020 09:21:47 pm
Prayers continue for all involved. May you all feel the Lord with you as you journey the path ahead.
9/21/2020 09:31:50 pm
Our prayers are with Ben and all of the family.. Kristin mentioned he had health struggles. Our prayers for healing and strength will continue as he undergoes the treatment. We know who holds you in his hands is far more powerful.
Anne (Marsch) Halliday
9/21/2020 09:33:00 pm
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 Sending prayers, hugs, and support 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
9/21/2020 09:33:53 pm
We are praying for Ben. I remember when my mom prophesied that you would have a baby. Love and prayers for you all. Hugs
Wendy R Highsmith
9/21/2020 10:24:13 pm
What a challenging path you are currently walking on. What an inspiration to me and so many others that you choose to walk this path with unwavering trust in God's plan. Praying for Ben and your entire family.
9/22/2020 05:39:53 am
Thank you for sharing this. My prayers and thoughts are with you all as you begin this journey.
9/22/2020 10:15:13 am
We are praying for a miracle.
9/22/2020 02:01:49 pm
Thank God for your mountain-moving faith, Susan. May God be with you, Ben and the rest of the family as you go down this path.
9/23/2020 08:55:11 am
Thanks to each of you for your kind and encouraging words. Your prayers have lifted me up and blessed me beyond measure.
9/23/2020 08:58:21 am
Praying for you. You are a wonderful writer. I love the picture of the little girls. Is one of them you?
9/23/2020 07:33:56 pm
Praying for a miracle again. We serve a mighty God! He will provide our every need. Admire your strength but praying for more for u and Ben and family. ❤️🙏❤️
9/25/2020 07:24:22 am
Aunt Suzy, we have been following Ben’s tenuous journey through his lovely Wife’s posts on Facebook and are praying for his healing with this upcoming bone marrow transplant. I really wish we weren’t so far away and could use a wonderful hug from you right now. We Love you guys!
10/3/2020 09:02:33 am
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Susan Lawrence taught elementary school for 33 years before hanging up her chalkboard to write and speak. She writes novels for both adults and middle grade children. Susan lives in Iowa with her husband and short-legged Lab, Molly. She has 3 children and 7 grandchildren who love to hear her stories.